Dan, You and your bride are in our prayers.
I can't imagine the weight you must feel, wanting to fight for and protect the one you love, But not being able to grab the foe as you said. I have been there and feel for you.
It makes for a very painfully frustrating feeling.
I am equally as sure the Lord will see you through as he is the only one that can truly understand us and help us.
God Bless
Tim & Anna Marie