Proud of you, brother. I have two step-children struggling with addiction.
I can’t afford anything that inhibits my control, best my demons remain fettered. We really don’t want to let them out to play. I am lucky to have dodged that bullet.
PTSD is a strange beast. It’s to late for us but Dave Butlers work lead to changes in the way we are trained. At least modern troops are being told that the symptoms are to be expected, it’s normal. Thus they are not crazy.
it’s not just psychological, as there are actual observable changes in the brain that accure, and some of those changes are worse the younger the person is at exposure and the longer the exposure.
treatments are improving as well, tho mostly in the area of identifiable triggering events. For those of us who had long term, systematic exposure at a young age not so much. You learn to embrace the hyper vigilance and emotional blunting wile exempting the fact that your startle response is a source of amusement for others. For me the worst is a pathological inability to back down from a threat and the visceral effect of becoming angry. At least I don’t turn green...