Nick, you are not alone. No one on this board got good the first, second, third, fourth.....etc. I remember being determined to make a good leaf. When I failed, I cut off the bad, tossed it into the yard( had an outside forge at the time) keep on going. At one point I looked up to see a small grass fire I had started from all the hot steel I had tossed.
Make sure that the project you tackle is within your ability, everyone needs to stretch but we all have our limitations.
I start each session on the forge with a "Kata" pure form, working the hammer correctly, making sure I am in the zone for the harder stuff that will follow.
Don't give up. When your waiting for the steel to come to heat, think. visualize what your are going to do before you do it. Never met a good blacksmith yet that didn't have the patience of Job. Or perhaps they were just plain stubborn.
Get back to the forge and keep working, things will come in due time.