J.Wolfe, I will be thinking about you. I am so glad I had the chance to know Jeanette. People who have never lost thier soul mate have no clue how hard it is. I know it feels like you have been split and gutted. There is not much anyone can do to help. The stronger the love the greater the pain. Don't go all macho and try to hide your grief - at least that was not my method. Tears hold chemicals that soothe the grief a bit, that you cant get anywhere else. I cried like a baby and sometimes still do. The only thought that kept me going, when it seemed I could not possibly draw another breath, was knowing what she would want for me. Jeanette would want the same for you. Have as rich, and happy, and fullfilling life, as you possibly can! She needs to be able to enjoy her reward without worrying that you are moping around in misery. Jeanette put a lot of effort into training you, don't let it go to waste. You are too old to re-train from scratch. Your life; is spart of her legacy. Hang in there my friend, even if by a thread, and it will get better, but you will allways miss her.
